Cyclical beings

Everything's a cycle...

They say...
Same shit different day...
different month...
different year...
...Different person?

yes.
...but not really.

break the cycle,
but come right back

a cycle's a circle
what do you expect?
ain't no end but the beginning!

(and who knows where that is anyways?)

learn and expand
grow to a new level of you.
but still you.

every experience brings me closer to understanding
but I always have to go back before I go forward
do what I did before just to see I don't wanna do it no more

makes me think...
must be a spiral,
not your average, planar circle
but some real life, 3D shit!

because even though I feel myself doing what feels the same
its not the same
I have elevated off the paper, above the plane
but I still have to run by the checkpoint


check myself.
make sure I'm on point.
(get it?)

in a maze to the center of myself,
like a record spinning-
needle passes the same point each time around
but every time, a different sound

so I listen
best I know how
don't hear it the first time?
can't retreat
throw that shit on repeat

first you dont succeed
try,
try again...
try something new

One day I'll get "it"
well, maybe
I guess I can't really say
I don't even know what "it" is

but can say each time around I've grown
made some mistakes
got some things right

but always continue on forward
follow the twists and turns,
concaves and curves
hope they lead me where I need to be

yea... thats just some a how im feelin right now... nothing too coherent, just my thoughts